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i ♥ RED


Y Thursday, September 30, 2010

Last blog post till 'O' level end?
Maybe will use my bro iMac to post but not my computer,
I'm going to dismantle my computer NOW!
25days to 'O'level ;)
CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG!!

Its not about the time to 'O'level,
even if there is 10months to 'O'level,
you won't definitely be able to score in it...
It's all about scoring it,
not hoping it to end or fearing it to start.
All the best people ;)

Nothing improved with them,
never spoke a single words with them today,
went to school with Sebastian & JR,
didn't talk at all...
I bet this will end our friendship.
Bye,i know you guys hate me,
its okay.
You are trying to break me bit by bit,
i don't care!
All the best (:

Yeah,your 'A'level coming soon too!
Gambateh!
I know you can do it. :)
Yeah,i will miss you...
I trying not to message you,
i can tell you don't really like me too.
I'm annoying & childish.Okay!
All the best too ;)
Love is not about being together,
is about being happy.
Since you are happy without me,
than i'm more than 'happy' too? i suppose...
Forcing brings no happiness.
You don't have to like me to please me,
you don't have to message me just because it makes me feel happy,
you don't have to entertain me just because you don't want me to be EMO,
after all i'm not that important in your life.
You say you do care for me,
MAYBE...
But you once told me,
you care for all friends.
So what should i determine from these two sentences?
Of course i hope you do care me for more than just being friend.
I might not play an important role in your life,
but you play an important role in my life. (:

IMY,
ILY.♥

I dedicate this last song to you,


There's no perfection in this world.



lll
black&red.
5:58 PM

Y Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Whenever i'm chatting with you,
or i started msging you first,
i feels like i'm irritating you.

I won't give up on anything.
That's my way of life.




lll
black&red.
12:12 PM

Y Tuesday, September 28, 2010

This hurt so badly,
i don't know will you see this.
2months...
it'll be 5months already,
4thDecember,see ya than.
Sorry.

I can discard every single friends out there,
just for you.
Sorry,even if i have all friends out there,
without the one i love the most,
life is meaningless,
life doesn't mean anything.



I'm weak ain't i?
I'm gonna get stronger,
its now or never...



lll
black&red.
4:57 PM


It doesn't matter.
You are giving me fake hope after all...
In love,
the one who fall in love first is the loser...
Maybe that's the only way.
I really don't know how to express the feeling to you,
it's more than words...
I know i made you scared,Sorry.
Of cuz being with me is DL,
who don't feel so...
Just tell me in my face,
don't turn one big round to tell me such a simple thing...
FUCK.
The more i think about how you treat me,
the more i get angry.
What you said yesterday,
obviously didn't went through your mind...
Both the bad & good,
don't make me feel good if you are forcing yourself...
Of cuz i want to be with you,
but you don't want to be with me,
what to do...
You always give me hope,
but whenever i did something,
the hope is gone...
I hope i can grab you tight,
and never let go,
do whatever you want me to do,
make you the happiest girl in the world,
make you realize me.
But i'm too childish i guess,
you wouldn't like me.

I know i sent to you b4,
but i think the lyrics really suits this situation.
The video i wanted to show you went missing,
whatever...

[SR-71,My world.]
The fastest man in the world, fast asleep at the wheel
Nobody wants to be alone, so how did I get, here
When I look at you, I see him staring through
Awake and a smile, cuz he's been inside of you
Is he all the things you, tried to change me into?
Is he everything to you?

Does he make you high, make you real?
Does he make you cry? Does he know the way you feel?
Love is all around you, your universe is full
But in my world, there is only you

I can still find the smell
On my clothes and skin
I can still see your face, when youre sleeping next to him
Is he all the things you, tried to change me into?
Tell me does he…

[chorus]

I've had enough of fears, you let them out
Now I wrap myself around you
Like a blanket full of doubt
He's your everything

[chorus]

You make me high! You make me real!
You make me cry! Now you know the way I feel
Love is all around you, your universe is full
But in my world, there is only you



lll
black&red.
12:17 AM

Y Monday, September 27, 2010

I've tried to post something happy today,
Chat with Ren An & Kelly for 4hrs today. :)
Chat about everything & realized that what human experience is much similar.
Talk about death,
& i realized I've not much done in life,
i get scared & feel weird.
I hope this teach me not to procrastinate to people you love,
say what you want,
mean what you say,
prove what you mean.

I'm really glad that I've met you,
I'm really glad that I've love you,
I'm really glad you take me seriously.
But would you give me a chance?

Hold structure,
don't let life pass,
let yourself be free,
forget the past.

I know i'm not alone,
I'm not the only one who is broken,
& i know i'll never let you go
i could watch the world pass by,
just as long as its you & I.

I have seen what happens to a lonely heart.
And i'll scream just to get your attention.

I'll treat you better than i ever could be.
Trust me,
i will not treat you like how i treat my EX.
You are the girl that makes me feel crazy. xD

watch these,


24 is shooting me ;P




I hope this could cheer you up ;)
Yeah,you know its never too late.

There's too many song i want to sing to you,
there's too many stuff i want to tell you.

I doubt anyone other than my family,
appreciates me.



lll
black&red.
4:31 PM

Y Sunday, September 26, 2010

Whenever i stare blank into the air,
i think of you.
& the possibility of us being together.
I know its quite impossible for us,
Comparing me to your EX,
it's like comparing heaven & earth...
I'm more stupid than him,
I'm uglier than him,
I'm younger than you which he is older than you,
I'm childish like you say,
I'm Shorter,small size than him,
I'm nothing compare to him.
I'm a nuisance compare to him & you.
But i am who i am,
like me for who i am,
& hate me for who i am.
Don't ever doubt me,
cause whatever i say in front of a certain person,
is what i say in front of any other person..
I don't act or gossip behind people back.
I know my Academics ain't good,
my English is always broken,
my Chinese sucks too...
There's nothing good in me,
until you find me out about it.
I flirt,but i don't flirt when my heart is being occupied.

I'm always very worried about you,
but i wonder you even care about it?
Does it even matter?
Do you even feel anything?
Do you even get worry about me?

At least i let you know my bad side first,
rather than making you like my good side,
& realize my bad side.



lll
black&red.
8:16 PM

Y Saturday, September 25, 2010

I mean it okay.
don't classify me with them.

What would you do if i told you,i'm not giving up?

I thought yesterday was going to turn out good,
but seems like everything ruined it...
Boring...
alone at home ):

I think we are impossible ba...
The more i think the more i feel stupid,
i'm younger than you.
But i hope you give me a chance. :)

Someone once ask me that,
does age matter?
I replied with hesitation with a no.
But now,
i know the answer should be a yes.
It was a 4 years younger girl who asked me that,
now i'm a 1 year younger boy who ask that,
does age matter?
If only Albert Einstein was still here to help me create my time machine..

You really matter to me,
& i'm not even able to doubt myself.

You truly love him,
tell him.
i'm sick of one sided love already,
but i'm not gonna give up.

You were everything I wanted.
You were everything a girl could be.
Then you left me brokenhearted
Now you don't mean a thing to me
All I wanted was your
Love



lll
black&red.
1:39 AM

Y Thursday, September 23, 2010

After all i'm alone from the very start,
just being naive...
The way you treating me now is completely different okay?
I need you to find me ):
be a part of me please.

I never meant to text those things,
but i need to say it out...
Sorry,
but you really show me a sight like you hate to see me,
sorry to feel this way but its what i feel...
The way you reply me,
changed.
The way you look at me have also changed.
I don't want to go out just because you promised,
i meant no point going out was because you won't even be happy about it...
The way you make me feel is dam ...
I can't even stop thinking about you,
whatever reason i emo or feel down is because of you.
whenever i'm happy or glad is because of you.
I might not smile,but i'm happy.
I might not be pissed off,but i'm pissed.
I might not be what you think i am,but i am.
Nobody knows me,
and nobody bother knowing me,
i need you...
But i know it's impossible,
you can't forget the past.
Let bygone be bygone,
but let fact be fact.

FML.
ily wholeheartedly.



lll
black&red.
10:14 PM

Y Tuesday, September 21, 2010

I've too many things to say to you,
its either i don't dare to mention it,
or there isn't enough time to finish it.

Give me the courage to say it please.♥

I don't think i suits you,
i don't think i am good enough for you,
i don't think i will be able to give you a good time,
not even mentioning life,time will do.
I think i'm such a useless kid compare to you.
Sorry.



lll
black&red.
8:27 PM

Y Monday, September 20, 2010

You don't know how lovely you are.



lll
black&red.
6:52 PM

Y Sunday, September 19, 2010

I don't believe that anybody,
feels the way I do about you now.
There are many things that I would like to say to you,
but I don't know how.

Miss you :)

Suppose that I missed you
Suppose that I cared
And suppose that I've spent all my nights running scared
And suppose that I was never there

And my eyes are screaming for the sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming
Of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you, so I guess I feel lonely too

Suppose we were happy, suppose it was true
And suppose there were cold nights
But we somehow made it through
And suppose that I'm nothing without you
But I'd rather be here with you


My Horoscope
Love Zodiac Profile- Libra

If you are Libra:
You are fantastic and a very sexy lover. You love mush and romance in your relationships. You like to flirt even when you are committed but most of it is harmless fun. You tend to trust anyone very fast. So be careful because you fall in love too fast. You love peaceful dinners and relaxed evening walks with your partner. You are an extremely passionate lover and the opposite sex adores you for that. You express your love whenever and wherever you can. You take great care of your sweetheart and shower all your attention on your sweetheart.

Your kissing style:
Your kisses are wild and amazing.

To attract you, the opposite sex must be:
Stylish, sophisticated, attentive, mysterious, etc.

You are more compatible with - Aries, Aquarius, Gemini
You are less compatible with - Scorpio, Virgo, Capricorn



lll
black&red.
4:04 PM


I love talking on phone with you <3
i love talking to you ANYWHERE,ANYTIME,ABOUT ANYTHING ;D
ILY,haha



lll
black&red.
12:22 AM

Y Thursday, September 16, 2010

Studying now, ;)
missing you every second, ):
waiting for your text. ;/
Most of the time,have to be me to start the conversation,
why can't you start talking to me first? ):

Yesterday been studying the whole day,never even touch computer to DotA,
only to update my blog. ;)
The only reason i updated my blog is because of you?
You are the only viewer of my blog,& its more than enough already.
You might think its ridiculous to post for you,
who cares about my life,maybe?
Sorry than IF you think this way.

You are everything I ever wanted and all that i dreamed of but im too scared to tell you how i feel because you dont feel the same.

1 Universe, 9 Planets, 204 Countries, 809 Islands, 7 Seas, and I had the privilege to meet you...
So,how is it going to end up?
You make me smile without even trying,
would you be my jacket?

Everybody is a genius. But, if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will spend its whole life believing that it is stupid.” -Albert Einstein



lll
black&red.
6:17 PM

Y Wednesday, September 15, 2010

I was born,to tell you i love you.
I was torn,to do what i have to,
to make you mine,stay with me tonight.
Call me,i'm desperate for your voice ):
I miss you,HXY D:
<3

Don't only do things just because you promise me,
do it with your heart & your willingness,
no point accomplishing your promises and not creating any empty promises.
But to me,if you do things only because you promise me,
it's the same as giving me empty promises,
there's no meaning in the things you do or going to do...
Don't tell me things that you will pleased me & not being truthful...
Don't tell me things that only seems true on the surface & not on the inner part...
No point deceiving me now,when you can't deceive anyone forever...
Don't even begin deceiving someone...
I hope whatever you did to me or whenever you spent time with me,
is not only because you promised me,i hope you did it because you wanted it wholeheartedly.
This isn't from any website,even the ideas wasn't from any website,
it's from within me...

Been studying the whole day today,
with RenAn & Noel ;)
from 11am to 7pm <3
Trying to brush up on my Add.math ;DDDDDDD
Thanks RenAn for helping me out whenever i can't do anything! :D
Before me & RenAn head for our dinner destination,
i saw a huge cinnamoroll plush ;D
Intending to get it for you ;D <3

I feel sick,feel heat-y,
& stomach isn't well not stomach pain,just not well D:

Used my bro's iMac to post this so coooolzxczxzc :D



lll
black&red.
8:11 PM

Y Monday, September 13, 2010

For Dljf- Desmond whose their name start with letter D, below are the analysis result :
Once you get it into your head that you want someone, you move full Steam ahead in your suit. You do not give up your quest easily. You are nurturing and caring. If someone has a problem, this turns you on. You are highly passionate, loyal, and intense in your involvements, sometimes possessive and jealous. You are very sharp & talented often with sense of humor. When people bother to look deep inside they cannot resist what they see. You are stimulated by the eccentric and unusual, having a free and open attitude. You get jealous of other people and lose your temper.

So true,but if it is so,than it's no longer being a unique one already...
But it been accurate for me ;D

It feels as if,with only you is more than enough.



lll
black&red.
11:09 PM

Y Sunday, September 12, 2010

Every way or any way,
i think of you anytime ):



lll
black&red.
5:58 PM

Y Saturday, September 11, 2010

IDK whether you re-read my posts when i edit it...
So gonna post a new one ;)

I'm not perfect,but i keep trying.
Cause thats what i said from the start.

ily,
i miss you,i miss you,i miss you everyday.
想念你 ):



lll
black&red.
4:15 AM

Y Friday, September 10, 2010

Humans always judge things through its surface,
when things is usually tough because of its internal circumstances.

You asked me that because of someone else?
If it is so,
don't ask me anymore.
It always like this,
i really hate it...

I want to trust you,
but can you bring me to trust you?
I've got 心事 can you be my listener?
It's always unfair you know,
i can do it for you,
but can you do it for me?

stupid life



lll
black&red.
10:22 PM

Y Thursday, September 9, 2010

Finally get a chance to chat with you ;D
More than willing to help you.
I really do want spend more time with you,
if it's possible...
My high for today was a chance to chat with you on phone ;D

You really sound pretty stressed,
chill,
relax,
&
do things moderately ;)
I know you have not much time left before your prelim,
but what to do,ling shi bao fuo jiao,
won't really do anything good & you should know it ):
Yeah,what's important is your 'A'level.
Don't stress yourself too much man ):
You're only making the people around you to worry more about you.
Yeah,if you need anyone to listen to you,
distress you,
you can always find me :D

I miss you terribly,
i wonder you feel the same?

Take care ,♥



lll
black&red.
4:23 AM

Y Tuesday, September 7, 2010


I hope an extraordinary day like this will come soon ;D

I feel like hugging and hold you tight. D:
I'm tired,
i need a rest...
Hope you would chat with me soon.

What is this?!
Now can't even contact you ):
Faster get a new phone la!!!

突然好想你 ♥

LOL,whatever i doing i think of you...
i thought you chatting with me than kept coming to check xD



lll
black&red.
2:49 PM

Y Sunday, September 5, 2010

Days are hard to pass without the one you love the most being with you...
It's always tough to be happy when the one you desire the most isn't there.
So near yet so far.
Tomorrow time to start studying already ;)
no much time left,CHIONG!

My day started very badly today,
Stomachache twice,than feel like vomiting once.XINKU D:
She has been ignoring me since yesterday 2243 ;/
I'm sorry ):



lll
black&red.
2:15 PM

Y Saturday, September 4, 2010


Before being happy,
things is always sorrow & rough..
It's unfair,when things don't turn out the way you wanted even if you have been through sorrowfulness...
People around me always tell me things is happening not on the right time,
but when is it the right time?
It's your choice to make that difference...
Being happy is a choice?
But being not lonely is never a choice one could make...
I really hate being lonely,
especially when stuff don't turn out right!
I always hope there's someone that i could fall back on if i am too tired...
Why isn't there any kind soul in this world of mine?
Is there even a hug-gable person in my dimension?
Everything seems fake & nothing feels real.
I'm tired already,
even though i found someone to fall back on,
but it won't let me to...
Life is so unfair,i hate life...
I've never did like myself but me myself is the only one always being with me...
When things get to you so often,
you would eventually like that thing.
Well,i really don't need you to love me...
Just let me love you,
I really feel like crying right now ):

So what if i posted all these stuff?
Nobody will bother reading them,
nobody will come and comfort me.
I really hope you are the "NOBODY".
You should know i'm referring to you.. ):

I really hope i could live laugh love too,
these are the things i like to do,
nothing more.

I am part of a lost generation
and I refuse to believe that
I can change the world
I realize this may be a shock but
“Happiness comes from within.”
is a lie, and
“Money will make me happy.”
So in 30 years I will tell my children
they are not the most important thing in my life
My employer will know that
I have my priorities straight because
work
is more important than
family
I tell you this
Once upon a time
Families stayed together
but this will not be true in my era
This is a quick fix society
Experts tell me
30 years from now, I will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my divorce
I do not concede that
I will live in a country of my own making
In the future
Environmental destruction will be the norm
No longer can it be said that
My peers and I care about this earth
It will be evident that
My generation is apathetic and lethargic
It is foolish to presume that
There is hope.
And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it .
- Jonathan Reed



lll
black&red.
11:34 PM


Why must it always be you?
Sick & tired of you already...

I can ensure you that i might be the same as everyone else,
but i won't two-time anyone.
KANPUA TIONGXIM ONE!♥

When death starts to embrace you,
you will start to realize what you are.



lll
black&red.
12:29 AM










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7xD-
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Her
RED!
my POOH bear
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My razers! ;D
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lMY hates

H MYself
H MYphone
H Betrayer.

l MY desire

D Her
D Pass N level
D O level with at least 3As ;D
D iPhone 4G
D Strive in Education!
D To achieve all my Desires!
D Want to join DOTA competition!
D Find a good DOTA team to join!
D Daddy to be healthy! and people i know!(:
D New Razer mouse!



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