Last blog post till 'O' level end? Maybe will use my bro iMac to post but not my computer, I'm going to dismantle my computer NOW! 25days to 'O'level ;) CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG!!
Its not about the time to 'O'level, even if there is 10months to 'O'level, you won't definitely be able to score in it... It's all about scoring it, not hoping it to end or fearing it to start. All the best people ;)
Nothing improved with them, never spoke a single words with them today, went to school with Sebastian & JR, didn't talk at all... I bet this will end our friendship. Bye,i know you guys hate me, its okay. You are trying to break me bit by bit, i don't care! All the best (:
Yeah,your 'A'level coming soon too! Gambateh! I know you can do it. :) Yeah,i will miss you... I trying not to message you, i can tell you don't really like me too. I'm annoying & childish.Okay! All the best too ;) Love is not about being together, is about being happy. Since you are happy without me, than i'm more than 'happy' too? i suppose... Forcing brings no happiness. You don't have to like me to please me, you don't have to message me just because it makes me feel happy, you don't have to entertain me just because you don't want me to be EMO, after all i'm not that important in your life. You say you do care for me, MAYBE... But you once told me, you care for all friends. So what should i determine from these two sentences? Of course i hope you do care me for more than just being friend. I might not play an important role in your life, but you play an important role in my life. (:
IMY, ILY.♥
I dedicate this last song to you,
There's no perfection in this world.
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black&red. 5:58 PM
Y Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Whenever i'm chatting with you, or i started msging you first, i feels like i'm irritating you.
I won't give up on anything. That's my way of life.
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black&red. 12:12 PM
Y Tuesday, September 28, 2010
This hurt so badly, i don't know will you see this. 2months... it'll be 5months already, 4thDecember,see ya than. Sorry.
I can discard every single friends out there, just for you. Sorry,even if i have all friends out there, without the one i love the most, life is meaningless, life doesn't mean anything.
I'm weak ain't i? I'm gonna get stronger, its now or never...
lll
black&red. 4:57 PM
It doesn't matter. You are giving me fake hope after all... In love, the one who fall in love first is the loser... Maybe that's the only way. I really don't know how to express the feeling to you, it's more than words... I know i made you scared,Sorry. Of cuz being with me is DL, who don't feel so... Just tell me in my face, don't turn one big round to tell me such a simple thing... FUCK. The more i think about how you treat me, the more i get angry. What you said yesterday, obviously didn't went through your mind... Both the bad & good, don't make me feel good if you are forcing yourself... Of cuz i want to be with you, but you don't want to be with me, what to do... You always give me hope, but whenever i did something, the hope is gone... I hope i can grab you tight, and never let go, do whatever you want me to do, make you the happiest girl in the world, make you realize me. But i'm too childish i guess, you wouldn't like me.
I know i sent to you b4, but i think the lyrics really suits this situation. The video i wanted to show you went missing, whatever...
[SR-71,My world.] The fastest man in the world, fast asleep at the wheel Nobody wants to be alone, so how did I get, here When I look at you, I see him staring through Awake and a smile, cuz he's been inside of you Is he all the things you, tried to change me into? Is he everything to you?
Does he make you high, make you real? Does he make you cry? Does he know the way you feel? Love is all around you, your universe is full But in my world, there is only you
I can still find the smell On my clothes and skin I can still see your face, when youre sleeping next to him Is he all the things you, tried to change me into? Tell me does he…
[chorus]
I've had enough of fears, you let them out Now I wrap myself around you Like a blanket full of doubt He's your everything
[chorus]
You make me high! You make me real! You make me cry! Now you know the way I feel Love is all around you, your universe is full But in my world, there is only you
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black&red. 12:17 AM
Y Monday, September 27, 2010
I've tried to post something happy today, Chat with Ren An & Kelly for 4hrs today. :) Chat about everything & realized that what human experience is much similar. Talk about death, & i realized I've not much done in life, i get scared & feel weird. I hope this teach me not to procrastinate to people you love, say what you want, mean what you say, prove what you mean.
I'm really glad that I've met you, I'm really glad that I've love you, I'm really glad you take me seriously. But would you give me a chance?
Hold structure, don't let life pass, let yourself be free, forget the past.
I know i'm not alone, I'm not the only one who is broken, & i know i'll never let you go i could watch the world pass by, just as long as its you & I.
I have seen what happens to a lonely heart. And i'll scream just to get your attention.
I'll treat you better than i ever could be. Trust me, i will not treat you like how i treat my EX. You are the girl that makes me feel crazy. xD
watch these,
24 is shooting me ;P
I hope this could cheer you up ;) Yeah,you know its never too late.
There's too many song i want to sing to you, there's too many stuff i want to tell you.
I doubt anyone other than my family, appreciates me.
lll
black&red. 4:31 PM
Y Sunday, September 26, 2010
Whenever i stare blank into the air, i think of you. & the possibility of us being together. I know its quite impossible for us, Comparing me to your EX, it's like comparing heaven & earth... I'm more stupid than him, I'm uglier than him, I'm younger than you which he is older than you, I'm childish like you say, I'm Shorter,small size than him, I'm nothing compare to him. I'm a nuisance compare to him & you. But i am who i am, like me for who i am, & hate me for who i am. Don't ever doubt me, cause whatever i say in front of a certain person, is what i say in front of any other person.. I don't act or gossip behind people back. I know my Academics ain't good, my English is always broken, my Chinese sucks too... There's nothing good in me, until you find me out about it. I flirt,but i don't flirt when my heart is being occupied.
I'm always very worried about you, but i wonder you even care about it? Does it even matter? Do you even feel anything? Do you even get worry about me?
At least i let you know my bad side first, rather than making you like my good side, & realize my bad side.
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black&red. 8:16 PM
Y Saturday, September 25, 2010
I mean it okay. don't classify me with them.
What would you do if i told you,i'm not giving up?
I thought yesterday was going to turn out good, but seems like everything ruined it... Boring... alone at home ):
I think we are impossible ba... The more i think the more i feel stupid, i'm younger than you. But i hope you give me a chance. :)
Someone once ask me that, does age matter? I replied with hesitation with a no. But now, i know the answer should be a yes. It was a 4 years younger girl who asked me that, now i'm a 1 year younger boy who ask that, does age matter? If only Albert Einstein was still here to help me create my time machine..
You really matter to me, & i'm not even able to doubt myself.
You truly love him, tell him. i'm sick of one sided love already, but i'm not gonna give up.
You were everything I wanted. You were everything a girl could be. Then you left me brokenhearted Now you don't mean a thing to me All I wanted was your Love
lll
black&red. 1:39 AM
.The adviser
DesmondLJF ChestnutDriveSecSchool
Yet another year on 17oct.
Loves to joke,laugh and help others!
Proud to be a Libra! d
♥ Her ♥
♥ RED!
♥ my POOH bear
♥ Family!
♥ 7xD-
♥ My Comp
♥ My razers! ;D
♥ Animes!
lMY hates
H MYself
H MYphone
H Betrayer.
l MY desire
D Her ♥
D Pass N level
D O level with at least 3As ;D
D iPhone 4G
D Strive in Education!
D To achieve all my Desires!
D Want to join DOTA competition!
D Find a good DOTA team to join!
D Daddy to be healthy! and people i know!(:
D New Razer mouse!
